For those who follow know my daughter wannaberockstar, tried to committ suicide this summer, since that time we have been living in a state of terror level red. She terrorizes me when she does not get what she wants. I say "no" to anything and we are looking at a 20-50 minute fight. These fights happen almost everyday.
She has convinced atleast one family member who has never even met The Indian that of course he is terrorizing her. He has been able to do what I find my worst personal parenting failing, he has provided consistency. Groundings do not get forgotten, or badgered away.
Amongst this stress my car died a day before payday. I had to borrow money from my childrens father and she was expecting money for a phone card. She has actually had the nerve to say things such as " I wouldn't ask for your phone if you hadn't taken the money for your CAR." As if we could go without transportation?????
These daily fights are affecting my health, I am pushed into a relapse any time I break down and finally loose my temper, and trust me it takes a lot to get me to that point. How long can I handle this? How long before she is on the right medication? Do I really have 5 years before she's ready for college?
We have counseling and will have a personal psychiatric worker who is supposed to model appropriate behavior and help deal with the big familial issues. It will be a good month before she can start getting this help. Bigger question being can we make it another month?
Any words of wisdom, good karma, blessings or prayers would be appreciated.